oh well, jus wana post abt my today. =)
wasnt too bad =) wahaha


met qiu lian and gordon on train..
this is not planned.
can say that the trip with them was quite pleasent =)
hehehe.
but i realised taht i talk too much.
opps !!
always lidat one !
but to say the truth, i am very very extream.
sometimes, i can be very silence when i met ppl on train, sometime e other way round.
not that i mood swing, but more of, if i am comfy or nt =)
but yeah, i dun like to be with big crowd.


was abit late for prayermeeting !!
i mus make it a point, i have to be punctual !!
cant walk fast due to this lousy sandals i am wearing.
i have to_____ my toe when i walk.
i seriously duno wat word to decribe my toes when i walk.
haha
gordon suggested "Gek" haha
i tik "Gek" is the best word to decribe my toe at the moment.
however, i still prefer to use a eng word to decribe it. lol.
but "Gek" is funny thou =p
i seriously tik that i can walk faster in heels compared to this sandals.
lol.


yay !!
won the best of e best fastest growing cg !!
hehehehehehee !!!!
back to jan, at that moment, fastest growing cg is nv nv in my dictionary.
mayb, fastest growing as in growing literally.
obese..... i mean.
ok lar joke.
actually, i am jus trying to say that, i'm reali supprise when i receive the sms frm eelee.lols
yea, jus wana say that...
the award dun jus belongs to me alone.
YOU GALS play a big role.
and, GOD play a big big role in this.
thanks for supporting me, both my spiritual daddy and children =)
i rmber a few years ago,i won the best of e best NB award.
that time i dun reali noe wats going on.
i rmber they gave me a mini-vase.
i was too practical that i threw it away after a few days.
lol
cos i dun grow flowers.
but regret throwing it away mann -_-
stupid me.


have one convert today !!
and and and, my NBs were holy spirit baptised !!
congrats =)


hmmmms.
i was blined by my limitations.
this leads to the lack of faith.
this leads to materialism.
being materialistic is not jus loving the things of the world more den God, but it also means that u trust wat u see, rather den trusting God.
currently, my grp have 14 ppl already.
hitting a unit is not a prob.
however, i have no faith in this, bcos i feel so in lack.
as in, not enough shepherds and leaders.
BUT, i wun tik this way again.
change my mind set.
y did i box God up?
y did i doubt?
if i am going to grow this grp with my own way, my own strategy, den how long can this grp exist?
victory not bcos of i am smart or something, its more of, God is working =)
okay, if i wana do great thing for God, the 1st step will be.. my God have to be a big God.
if i 'limit' wat god can do, den its so difficult for God to use me to do great things for His kingdom.
so.... this fri, i wana mit my gals and pray thru =)


today, daddy make me so sad again.
actually i tik its me lar.
i duno y leh.
i tik i am getting more demoralised abt my Os.
thou i rmber clearly that david told me e other nite when i am deciding if i wana re take Os r not, he said that once i made up my mind, dun turn back anymore.
i rmber this, and this is so significant to me.
this came in abit late, but thanks david =)
ok, as i was saying...
demoralised.
e reason being is when i read my past entries.
i said that i wana do well to glorify God.
but i failed my maths.
but i tik thats reali my best le.
a D7 might be lousy in many's eyes.
but to me, its not!!
thou i improve in a damn slow speed, but i did my best.
i noe that eelee understand, jency understand, some others understand..
but daddy, mummy and didi dun.
daddy say to eugene " ur jie jie lousy, take o level 2 times, if pass, i wun waste my money to send her to private sch"
mummy say to me " wat a disgrace, next year didi will go poly together with u."
didi says " if i got 24 points for Os, i will cry arh"
i noe that they didnt mean to hurt me, cos they love me.
but i am somehow hurt by their "indirect" speech.
and now, i start to tik, indeed 24 points is lousy.
i am very very scared to fail my maths again, i am so scared that i cant go poly again next year.
its a total bull shit to them when i said, " i did my best le"
u noe y i noe i did my best le?
cos even till now, i didnt regret at all, thou 24 points is not as good.
i am jus upset that they dun understand.


oh ya, i am so sinful !!
i ate supper with daddy jus now !
joyce & jens, pls forgive me!!
actually i dun wana go de, but daddy was so disappointed if i dun go.
pls understand that its VERY rare for us to eat together.
reali RARE.
the last time that we ate together was....... i tik chinese new year.
I THINK.
daddy is a BUSY man!! trust me.


okay lar, tired le.
buais.

-tiinggx`charriis ™ __* ii am ur beloved , ii am ur child-

 

 

 

 

 

 

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